Monday, April 27, 2009
How do you deal with losing friends...actually losing an entire family? I don't understand what I'm supposed to do. I feel like shit. I don't know why I let them make me feel this way, but I can't help it. My entire life feels like its been completely turned inside out, upside down and backwards, and my heart has been completely wrung out. I loved these people like I love my own family and now they hate me. And all I'm trying to do is do whats best for my kids. Why can't they see that? Why do I always have to be the bad guy? What did I do wrong? Why do they hate me? And why the FUCK do I even care? I try not to care, I try to say fuck it, I have enough friends, I have enough family...but I have a big hole in my chest and it feels like I can't get any air. I've cried more this weekend than I have in a long time. I just want them all to go back home and leave us alone.
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Don't worry bout those people. Who needs them. Its all about YOU!!!!! (and your kids)
So I have no idea who these people are but I'm pretty sure they suck. And not in the good way. Caring is natural, its what we do even when our instincts tell us to stop. What can I say, women are stupid like that. They'll either come around or you'll cry them out. Good luck@
welcome to the world of divorce. I had a sister in law that divorced the family and they still talk to her, love her and have her over. I divorced the family and I haven't talked to anyone from that family since the month before I left. It hurt. I cried... a lot.. and then you realize that really if they're that stupid they never really liked you in the first place. And if they didn't like me in the first place why the hell am I crying over them. The fact of the matter is...we're too good. We're too good for them, and we're too good for thier little family. WE are the ones who know how to love, we did it. We loved them all the stupid husband and the dysfunctional family and we loved them unconditionally which explains why it hurts so much when they turn on us. They on the other hand didn't love us as much nor do they know how... the only thing they know to do is to talk bad about us so that they feel better.
It's divorce and it sucks. It'll get better though I promise. I'm proof. :)
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